Lately, aku busy gile babi. Haha. Tu je aku dapat cakap. Aku letih gile. Aku tak leh da nak tekinje-kinje sangat. Hepi sangat, bleh. Huh? Hmm. Everything messed up! Aku tak paham why there're so many orang yang suke sangat busy body. It totally ruined people's life. That is not funny, man. I tell you what, do you like people bugging around you? Make story like it totally happen? Fuck you bitch!

You should ask yourself. Macam-orang-care-pasal-kaw? Duhh. Thought, like you own everything. Telling people, hey-hey i have this. It never being sold in market duhh. You have ti book it at &%#!@ dulu. Alahai. Like I want it like hell. Fuck you more!

I'm so lost. I don't even know the real me anymore. Things should be fun. Like, hell yeahh! Sumpah, kaw da rosakkan sume babi. I lost them. I miss them so much. Sunyi gila. Takda sape pun kat rumah. I have no strength to go. Korang, balik la. :'(

Btw, I have these babies. Merekalah tempat aku bebel hari-hari. Macam paham je. Bgus respond gitu. Haha. They're so cute. Ni lah anak-anak saya. Meet, Mocca n' Kimo. :)

Mocca.


Kimo. :)








Ibu, ibu lapa agi laa.

Hmm. Aku tak tahu lah kalau dorang takda. Sumpah lagi sunyi aku kat sini. Xpela. Kalau kimo ngn mocca makan banyak-banyak pun tak pe. Ibu tak kesah. Ibu beli sayur manyak-manyak. Busuk macam mana pun, ibu tetap mandikan korang. Beli shampoo mahal biar bulu korang sihat. Siap blow dry lagi. Pakaikan cream nivea sume. Hehe. Aku berangan nak ada anak kot? HAHAHAHA.

Aku: Never let stranger keep them. Aku jaga dorang sampai last breath.

Bulat: Budak-budak tu mana? *giggle.

Last thought;

Miss this moment so much. Really.

Tunggu, aku update! :)

OMG! I've been leaving my baby for such a long time. Haha. Sian kaw weyhh. Bloggi, sorry ehh? Huhu. Been busy lah weyh. Just nak update sikit². Well, 3 things sume da settle weyhh. Aku memang hebbaaattt! ;)

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Okay. College went well. Alhamdulillah, Dean listtt weyhh. Haha. Kije pun da banyak. Naik pangkat pulak sem ni. Aduhaiii. InsyaAllah. Pointer tak kacau punyee. Hehe. Tenkiu UPM.


Licence pun pas jugak. Hee. Dulu je mabok stereng. Skang da muntah da. Jemu lah ngan Malaysian's driver ni. Sialan je lebey. Pehh. Sakit plak ati aku ni. Huh.


Aku ingat nak operate hujung tahun ni. Harap tak da pelah kan? Susa lah skang. Cepat penat. :)



Aku: Abi, tenkiu sayang. Nanti turn abi plak k? ;)

Indeed Vol. 2

As told by doctor my next appointment will be on August 24. The 1st was okay. Cuma, aku tak berapa nak ready tanya macam². Well, I didn't ready as I was before. Susahkan nak face truth. Bukan senang. Plus, when peeps keep asking how is ur situation. I didn't mean to be so forgetful on peeps which really care about me. I do thank 'em. Sometimes or shall I say usually, we don't really face the situation.

I can't do it anymore. I'm a LOSER. Thank you.

Scoliosis
Classification and external resources
A coronal X-ray of a person with thoracic dextroscoliosis and lumbar levoscoliosis. The X-ray is projected such that the right side of the subject is on the right side of the image, i.e. the subject is viewed from the rear. This projection is typically used by surgeons as it is how surgeons see their patients when they are on the operating table

Yess. Memang doctor cakap aku punya thoracic tak masuk stage serious lagi. Means, mine is 21.52 degree bend. If it bends to 30 degrees, I'll have the major operation on my tharacolumbar. So, nak center-kan balik. Bukan senang nak berada dalam perasaan normal sedangkan kita ni serba kekurangan. Sekarang pun, dah tak senang duduk. Stand up ke duduk ke baring ke bukan-nye nak skati² je. Huk. Silap hari bulan nak berak pun kena tempah satu jamban yang sangat spesel plak. Haha. Serious shittt!

Annonymous: Aunty kesian tau kalau girl macam you ni kena scoliosis ni. My daughter sekarang suffer benda yang sama jugak-lah. Tapi, die da operation msuk kali ni da 3 kali tau. Dulu die operate kat Tawakal. 100 000 tau aunty byr. Pastu, doc tu salah angle masukkan rod kat bone die. Hmm. Sampai tak boleh jalan tau. Masa tu, .... (I can't finish this. Tears will drop)

Doc: ....... Yours is not serious. So, we'll try brace okay? Next appointment nanti kte discuss. Nanti, ....... (Enough-lah kat situ)

Aku nak pakai braces lah. Bukan gigi punya k? Hehe. Aku ada search kat internet pasai kekurangan aku ni. Aku ade ikhtiar tau. Ingat aku goyang kaki tunggu doctor cakap je ke? Haha. Aku ada tengok Milwaukee brace, The TriaC brace, Boston brace, Charleston Bending brace and so on.

So, I choose The TriaC Brace. Nampak senang sket nak pakai nye. Aku pun berserah kepada Illahi. And Thank God, at least I can do my daily routine. Ala. Aku paham semua tu berlaku ada reason. Yang paling penting, masih ada orang yang sayangkan aku.

June 6, 2009

god, do you hear me?

gimme full depth of strength so i won't cry in front of her
and let her spirit flew away
i just don't wanna loose her
that's all
she means a lot to me
more than everything
i love her so muchhh ]':

just please..
don't let me feel down
all i wanted to see is a blooming orchid in front of my eyes
with some butterflies dancing joyful around her
i just can't watching her bleed from the inside
dear lord

gimme strength
please...
ngah, aku sayang kaw

- - -

[ oreo~ where are you? i feel alone ~~ ]

Posted by SIZZIE DAUD at 11:41 AM

By: Kakak. :')


Abang mintak maaf, za. Sebab agak kasar dengan za tadi. Tujuan abang satu je, nak za lawan penyakit za tu. Ingat za, penyakit tu boleh diubati kalau kita berusaha melawannya.

Tapi, kalau terus merenung nasib apa yang akan jadi kat kita pasni, apa pun tarak.

Abang nak tolong za lupakan penyakit za ni. Apa guna kita bersama kalau tak saling bantu membantu bila sorang ditimpa musibah.

So, pikir²kanlah. Za tahu mana yang baik dan buruk kan? Pape pun, abang tetap disisi za k?

By: Chicken Sayang. ♥

So, let's excercise. :)

Try This Procedure For Scoliosis

1. Stand with your feet about hip width apart and be aware of the contact you are making with the floor. Appreciate the push coming back up.

2. Let you head start to turn slowly to the left but don't let the shoulders move yet. Check if you are moving the head from the right joint, see - location of the atlanto-occipital joint
3. When your head has reached the end of its rotation, allow your shoulders to move to the left. IMPORTANT - do not let yourself screw down into the floor. Keep the thought that the floor is pushing up and you can release upwards also.

4. Once your shoulders have moved as far as they can, let your pelvis start to move. Keep moving in this upwards rotation until you feel your feet need to move and stop there.

5. Maintain this position for a few moments and then let go and let yourself swing back to the front and allow for slight movement. You don't want to fix yourself back into your habitual standing pattern.

6. Repeat on the opposite side.

Elcross Thoracolumbar Support

Ibu, ibu nak ini bolehhh? Pleaseee.

Aku: Masih lagi dalam khayalan. :P

Ohh, Jentayu.

Before I reached home from giant, (Alah kaw ni. Tu pun nak gtaw) I decide to cap some picture since sume pun da mabok nak hamik pic reramai kat jentayu tu. Siap berpicnic bagai. Mmg sangat kelakar-lah kan. Hehe. Invite-lah kesayangan aku tu. Tido je kije. Membesakan pewut die yang sexy tu. Ahaha. (Zaza's going really gross!)

<3

Dah. Tak larat nak upload manyak². Nanti² jelahh ye. :)

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